ღ Araisya Ismail ღ

I always thought our friendship was realest, I know your secret and you know mine, We talk about random things daily, The fact that we talk almost every day and never get sick of each other. But as time goes by, we realize that we are getting farther from each other, Yet we think that is normal, that what adult do or so I think, I never questioned you spend your weekend with your other friend, Cause you are not obligated only to me, But when I decided to hang out with my friend, I was at fault. We no longer share our secret, we tell other people as if we judged each other secret. I never know the true reason you decided that I’m no longer worthy of your friendship, Where my defense is just pointless to you. Pointless? I never knew one word could break my heart that much, The fact that I was not at my best condition throughout my degree life, That one word hurt more than anything, It hurt more than having a gastric and waited for almost

There is a day where you find yourself surrounded by darkness, reaching for a light that never come, everything is a pitch black, suffocating, the heart pumping like you are near your death, thinking that someone will come to help, but no one was there. One day you feel happy, everything was funny, but then the next day you feel like everything is falling apart, You think that you are going crazy, but everyone said that it was acting. they never know how it felt to break down suddenly, the fear of people judging in public, the fear of not knowing what going to happen tomorrow, the fear of losing person you trust and love, the fear of rejection from your dream job, the fear of not knowing who is the real you. One day we hope there is a light going to shine the darkness, the day where we is saved, the day where we think suicide is not the only way to cut this misery. the day where we finally be happy with our life.